© 2008 Mark Robert Gates, the Apostle Gideon

After reading Lewis Black’s, “Me of Little Faith,” I am again reminded, how amazing it is we humans manage to communicate, at all, in any language. Considering that mostly, we don’t. And, isn’t this biblical, in that in the Old Testament, it says, God confused the languages, to keep man from conspiring against Him. For, is it not a conspiracy against God, to place Him, “Way out there,” and decide one has to build a platform high enough to reach Him in space.

Well it has sure worked, for Lewis Black is correct, everything the world teaches, in any language, about religion, is impossible to follow and believe. I know, I tried it, before actually studying, with a master, how one discerns God from His Word’s. Also, when I was young, about 3 years old, a group of well meaning adults (sic) got together, and decided to teach me about religion. They taught me a list of things a “Christian” has to do, to be one, and convinced me, since I could not do what “Christians” do, I could not be one. 

The list included things like, praying in your closet for hours on end, in the manner the world teaches one to pray. Smiling through it all, and no matter what load of shit you get hit with, do not ever complain at all. Pointing out something is paining you, like, “My arthritis is acting up,” is actually a complaint. If your boat, overturns, one is supposed to stay under the boat, until God rights the boat, and not just simply swim out from under it. Never, ever, go to a doctor for care, or one does not have any faith at all. Never drink any beverages containing alcohol, or believe oneself, to have immediately become an alcoholic. Believe coffee, and all other fruits of the earth, to actually be bad for all of us. Proving oneself to have faith requires, like Superman, almost actually, standing on railroad tracks and not getting killed by a speeding freight train. Almost, certainly having to cut off one of one’s limbs, in this lifetime, if one is going to live in the next. And, on and on.

And, they were right, I could do none of those things, so I could not do what “Christians” do, however, fortunately, I discovered before death, I do not have to do any of those things, to believe in God. And, in fact, if I do, I am proving that I do not. For, if one takes the test the world offers, for whether or not one believes in God, one will almost certainly perish. And, not in a very pleasant way. fortunately, I had the list etched in the back of my mind, for they had trained me under hypnosis, so I did not even try to perish, to prove I believed. 

My point is, languages the world uses, when speaking and writing, make it almost impossible to communicate anything at all, reliably, and religion certainly proves this point. Also, as another thing the well meaning adults (sic), did, when I was young, was try to put me with a grown female playmate, of every race, and ethnic background, therefore causing one the first things I discovered to be, this lack of communication happens in all languages and cultures. As, of all the languages, there are only two one does not argue with your communication in, and that is Old Testament, Hebrew, and New Testament, Greek. Both, of which are no longer spoken, or communicated in, at all. All other languages, usually, cause people to argue with you over your vocabulary, punctuation, grammar, spelling and semantics, certain you have not communicated correctly, what you meant to, without even any discussion with you at all, to determine the truth about what you were trying to say. The worst of the languages this way, I discovered are, English, and French, in those two, languages, no matter what you say, someone corrects you to say, no you meant to say something else. So, God did definitely confuse the languages, to keep people from, communicating correctly, when they are conspiring against Him. Which, in my travels, has turned out to be, almost, constantly.

Also, the world only offers two belief systems for “Christianity,” one either has to be a fundamentalist waiting for the world to be destroyed, or a pentecostal waiting for an upper room experience, like that in Acts, when the Holy Ghost comes on hundreds of people in the same room, at the same time. Both events are historical events that will not be repeated, for God said after destroying the world with a flood, He would never destroy all of humanity again, and the upper room experience, of the apostles, was the first time the Holy Ghost had been given, and will not be repeated on such a large scale. When one first believes in Christ, and accepts Christ as head of one’s chapel, one then receives the Holy Ghost, or so the bible says, however, we have people waiting in churches for an upper room experience on the magnitude of the one in Acts. Come on people, one either receives the Holy Ghost when one believes, or He ain’t coming. I felt many times compelled, also in pentecostal churches, to ask, “How long have you people been huddled in your churches, praying for revival, wondering why it hasn’t happened?”

Also, the words Joshua and Jesus, are derivatives of actual Hebrew words, however, they are mispronunciations, of those words, not translations. There are no words in Hebrew, of which translate to the name Jesus Christ, so one will always get the argument from a Jew, that cannot have been His name, while on earth. I never, if one notices, use the word Jesus, choosing instead, to only use Christ, since the Hebrew word in question does correctly translate to Savior, or Christ, if one chooses to use the word Christ, in reference to the bibles, given Savior. Therefore, Lewis Black is again correct, the world’s version of Jesus, simply cannot be believed in, since, He is portrayed as Santa Claus, not the Christ of the bible. Completely absent is the man strong enough to clear a temple, bodily of people, and tables, and all, as well as stand before the entire group of temple teachers, of that day, and refer to them as a Brood of Vipers, to their faces. The world’s Jesus is a kindly Santa Claus, who never would accuse anyone of anything.

Also, the world has this inane concept of a thing called pregrace, wherein a person receives grace for forgiveness of future sins, not just a hosing of the past. Making it necessary for all victims of rape, incest, murder and molesting to forgive their attackers, to receive the same grace they do, for succeeding in their attack. Believe it or not, there are people who believe, God and Christ give grace to the evil, so they will succeed in their evil, so their victims can receive salvation by forgiving them. One simply cannot believe in a Jesus, of whom, allows this injustice, when one is faced with a Christ in the bible, who clears temples, and refers to hypocrites, like that, as a brood of vipers. And, we all know too well there is an ending to the bible, in which there are people referred to as, weeping and gnashing their teeth, instead of celebrating God’s holy grace.

Seeing God’s hand in events, is greatly obscured, by the mistranslations, and over exagerations in our present day bibles, regarding the events occuring. And, after reading Lewis Black’s, “Me of Little Faith,” I am again reminded, most people notice well, the discrepanices, in our bible translations, about so called, “Miracles.” Things like the sun going backwards, for an hour, or a day, or such, miracles, we now know to be physically impossible to accomplish. 

Let’s look at what we now know, in astronomy, physics, laws of gravity, and science, of which tell us, exactly what we read to be, someone mistaking a shadow going backwards, for the sun turning backwards. Not actually, the day going backwards at all, as translators have tried to obscure the meaning of the text to claim. Remember, how hard the church fought to keep astronomy from claiming the earth rotated the sun, and not the sun the earth, this is one of those reasons, why. This miracle is physically impossible to do, if it is not the sun that is rotating. Think for a minute, what we now know would actually happen to this earth, if it were to be stopped from spinning, one way, instantly, and in the same instant begun to spin the other way. Then, spin that way for an hour or a day. Then, stopped again from spinning that direction, immediately, and begun, in the same instant, again, spinning the other way. We would no longer be on a planet, there would now be another asteroid belt, in our solar system. There is no force, not even one God would create, of which, would keep the earth intact, through such physical exertions. The point is, the text clearly indicates, to every one of God’s students, the person requesting the miracle, did not actuallty receive what he thought he had. And, so as not to ruin the ending of the story for those who have not read it, I won’t point out what happens to the person, in the end.

A lot of the events, in our present day bibles, are either completely contrived, by an inability to accept what really is there, or exagerated for affect. The desired affect being God is powerful, and can do great things, however, the only thing these exagerations cause to happen, is they trip up the phoneys. Which, is why they are there to begin with, anyone trying to claim being able to demonstrate the biblical power of God, is immediately disposed of as a fraud. This being part of God’s intelligent design of the bible, however, if one wants an argument against what is taught as intelligent design, I only have two words to say, Ford and GM. As, we well know, evil in mankind, tobe an accident, not of God’s design, creation, by a creator, alone explains all of what we know to exist. It is not that my god could not create monkeys of which could change into humans, such is choilds play for the god I believe in, however, it is the blueberry, evolution cannot explain. All plants and seeds, simply exist, and do not evolve at all. At some point on earth out, boom, pops a blueberry, evolution cannot explain. Only, creation can explain a blueberry.

What one needs to do, to see God in real life is look at events, as they actually occur, inside most of us. I remember, clearly receivng at times, warnings, or premonitions, of things that were going to go wrong, if I did what I intended. And, actually arguing, against the premonitons, sometimes, with the argument, what was being prophesied, could not actually occur, only to discover, always, I was wrong. The greatest example I know of this, event occuring outside myself, given that all people will argue with God, sometimes, when presented with a warning of dire consequences. Is an event, of which, occured in an earthquake in the sxties, when I was a youth, growing up in California. One of the most graphic photos, in the papers, the next day, is of a truck, on a California highway, sticking out from under, a collapsed highway overpass.

I can only imagine what the argument must have been, between the driver of the truck and God, if He was indeed trying to warn the guy. And, whether or not it included any argument as to whether or not the truck’s driver was going to get to where he was going, and whether or not it was possible for God to stop him. However, what I do know for certain, in the long run, is, He hit the guy with a concrete bridge. Therefore, when the bible tells one, not to tempt God, just take His word for it, and do not do it. As, I have it on good report, from those who one can trust to tell the truth, no one is known to have survived tempting, or taunting, or threatening to do something if God did not do a certain act to stop the person, or God was not real. They say, every person who tempted God’s with lighting bolts, and getting hit by them, got hit by a lightening bolt, even on a clear day. My point is, if one has lived long enough, and knows where to look, one can clearly see God’s hand in a lot of what goes on, however, if one listens to the world’s, exagerations of these events, one usually becomes, named something like, Oral Roberts.

I remember, when Oral’s good prodigal son returned to the fold, and they started a “Christian” TV show, in which they would say into the cameras, things like, “God is healing seven blind people right now, please call the prayer line, and send us money.” If you doubt they wanted only money, I tested to be certain. I actually called in several prayer requests, I had of God, and reported them to their staff, and they prayed for me, and said they would continue to pray. Then sent me the standard, real prayer clothe for my personal disposal, I also found out, the hard way, they will ony send one prayer clothe to each household, then I waited to see if my prayer was indeed answered. When, my prayer was answered, as it always was, each prayer I called in was answered, by God with a positive response, leading me to truly believe if necessary, He would have healed me of leprosy. I would call, again, to give a praise report, of what happened, and no matter how long I argued on the phone, over whether or not they should be recording the praise reports, of prayers answered, they would argue, only instead, send us money.

Trust me, if you are running a prayer line, and you want believers and followers of Christ, with Christ as head, to continue to call, take down a praise report, it is really important. Prasie reports, help others to believe, and not having praise reports will get one, as happened to someones wife, on the Oral Robets TV show, really depressed. Since, even believing people will persecute those who do not care to know, how many prayers were actually answered, of which, were phoned into a prayer line.

Lewis Black is right, the world’s version of any religion cannot be believed in or followed is also underscored by something of which happened just recently. Good old Pat Robertson, went on a mad rampage to declare himself a prophet, or to have the gift of prophecy. He put out a bunch of predictions about the future, in the manner any astrologer would have, and then when only 8 of 10 turned out to be correct, said, “Eight out of ten is not bad.” However, enough people know of the bibles correct Hebrew teaching, that God’s standard for a prophet, is no, nada, zip, not one failed prediction. For, if God truly gives the world a prediction through a person, it is for Goddamn certain going to happen. Therefore, a person giving prophecy, who has a single failed prediction, is, according to God, a false prophet.

Now, we, God, Christ and the majority of believers and followers of Christ, with Christ as head of their chapel, have always seen Pat Robertson, as another L. Ron Hubbard. We really do not care how much money one can raise if one claims to be an alien from another planet, as that does not confuse people, who read and study a bible. However, poor Pat Robertson, in a country where everyone knows enough of the bible to know the truth, just had to stand up and declare himself a false prophet. Now, Pat is just not any fun to watch anymore, he seems to think something is amiss of which will go away, but, the truth is, in America, one cannot sell a false prophet to anyone. And, now poor Pat is blaming God for what? We cannot be of any help, when one declares oneself a false prophet, one can only turn off the TV cameras and go. Ask the Astrologers Pat, they all know, once one fails at prophecy, one’s career as a psychic or Astrologer is through. And, those who know the New Testament well enough, also know, God said there would be no more prophets, He now sends, instead, apostles, and when necessary to reveal the truth, those apostles will be present, to present His Words.

I remember going to a Benny Hinn concert, and in the middle of the day, when we all had broke for lunch, in an amphitheater of which would not allow one to bring in a packed lunch, being tempted by those I was with to go up on stage and claim a healing of which had never occurred. I refused, and could not think of anything to say to a man, claiming he should be given money because people he had gathered in an amphitheater were being healed of various diseases. I thought Benny Hinn, very vain, and still do, to claim credit for the healings taking place. And, again, I signed up for the Benny Hinn religion package, only to discover, all mailings and all teachings and all communications, said only one thing, “Send me money.” Now, whenever I manage to catch the Benny Hinn show, on any TV channel, I have noticed a parade of people claiming to be healed, who obviously were never ill, and even blowing them over with the Holy Ghost, is something all people coming to Benny’s stage, now fake.

The English language makes it possible for these charlatans, to use words that mean little, but sound gracious, like Benny Hinn’s use of the word saint to refer to everyone present. It seems if one peppers a persons vanity with enough, saints and hallelujahs, one will be compelled to pay for the pleasure. These people raise the vast amounts of money the way they do with feel good theology, and compelling people to be driven to go out and earn gazillions of dollars with their new found self-esteem, and then give millions to them. They tell people, if one does not become a gazillionaire soon enough, after their experience of the healing concert, then one does not believe, in Christ enough. Well, I was attending a bible school, learning to discern the true Word of God from a bible, and did not have time enough to leave my studies to become a gazillionaire, so I got kicked out of the Benny Hinn club, for failure to pay up. Now, since, I have noticed all free, “Christian” publications, I signed up for, would every quarter or six months or so, require everyone to again, resign up, to continue receiving their publication. And, always with another request for a contribution.

Language is one area, where the world excels in making us all find, bullshit, lies and frauds, more desirable to believe in, than truth itself. The Truth can set one free, seems to mean to most “Christians,” I won’t be able to make any more money. If I am set free, no one will pay me to receive the Word of God. It has always been my contention, if we were doing things right as believers and followers of Christ, with Christ as head of our chapels, then no one would ever have to pay a single cent to receive the Word of God, or any biblical teaching. This would only take a slight change in the economics, and then anyone wanting a bible, or bible teaching would be able to receive such, at no cost to themselves.

Today one can download and install a program by Rick Meyers, called E-Sword, http://www.e-sword.net, of which will allow one to read most bible translations for free, and also, includes many biblical books and writings, also, for free. And, includes Greek and Hebrew versions, with Strongs numbers so one can do Word Studies from the original languages. And, I have found the ones available for free, to be of greater value than the few who want payment to themselves for their publication, or in other words, payment from people, to themselves, for being able to read the Word of God. I like the literal translations the best, and they are all older and in public domain. I once encountered a young guy, who was taking money from a bank account to order a Joyce Meyers, no relation to Rick, I believe, video. My instruction was to download, E-Sword instead, as he had a home computer, and that would be better reading. For, one thing Joyce Meyers is mostly a teacher who teaches on women’s issues, and all of her teachings I have ever seen on TV, usually require some prior knowledge of the bible. I do not know if he ever got the Joyce Meyers video, however, he did later thank me for turning him onto E-Sword.

There was a time when I was a young believer, I jumped on the “Christian” television band wagon, believing it was helpful to Christ. I would watch the programming, then during the telethons would send in money in support. Until, one day I noticed that our local “Christian” TV stations byline, was, “The gospel on TV 24 hours a day.” That, is when I noticed, how little gospel there actually was, and how many programs that even contained bible teaching, were teaching advanced topics, not simple introductory gospel. I realized the programming was going to be of no help to someone unsaved, or a non believer, in trying to become a believer. As, this is the gist of the believer and follower of Christ with Christ as head, experience, helping others to believe what one does, I realized also, this TV experience, making millionaires of the people on TV, was actually of, not only no help to those trying to believe, but also dangling the lure of easy riches before others easily tempted to believe in making money only. That, is when I stopped paying for the TV, and stopped watching. Since, I have noticed the local station, where I lived prior to moving to Chicago, is operating like a ghost station, they are playing a loop of old shows, some I remember viewing over 10 years ago, and not noticing, we are in Revelation, at the point where the whore of Babylon has died, and waiting for Babylon, or the beast, or the anti-Christ, all synonyms for the same thing, itself, to be fed to the promised wine press.

And, yet this TV station still airs programs by those who claim to know from Revelation, exactly when it is going to occur, and from Revelation’s viewpoint, that the four horsemen are soon to arrive. The four horsemen is what brought us the Dark Ages, the Crusades and the plagues of Europe. Ask, the Pope. He, should know, the Vatican arranged our version of Revelation, and should know exactly where we are in the program, too. And, by the way, that according to the original, the lake of fire, and the millennial reign of Christ, are an either/or, proposition. We either will accept the reign of Christ on earth, or perish in the lake of fire, and as the wine press is being readied, we can be certain of which choice was made. 

This all of course, gets lost in the world’s translation of Revelation, making it a timeline by which people can predict the end of the world. And, by the way, Left Behind is all wrong too, as we are not going anywhere, we stay here, and God finishes the earth in the manner He intended before we fell astray, into sin, and those who were unable to resist the tempting went after Satan as his slaves. God has been waiting for a point where all on earth have made a choice, as to whether or not to follow and believe in His Savior, and accept His salvation, or to choose to die as martyred slaves of Satan. An, end of the world with people left who are happy with God is something the world will not put in its version. The world wants us to believe, in fairy tales of Left Behind sorts, and Santa Clauses, where we all perish, or all make the Grinch king, and live happily ever after.

I bought, Lewis Black’s book because I needed a good laugh. And, “Me of Little Faith,” provided that laugh. I am still laughing now, as I begin my second reading, going through with a highlighter, I am certain his book will sound the death knolls, of the world’s views of religion. Every good Pastor will have a copy of this book, go through it with a highlighter, and use it to point out the differences between what the world teaches, and what God’s of our Bible’s is really like. Also, every good Pastor will have a copy of a collection of Calvin and Hobbs cartoons in his desk drawer, as there is a little Calvin in all us guys, wanting to be let out. Calvin and Hobbs, and now, Lewis Black, too, let that little Calvin out just enough to sooth the urge. All us, believers and followers of Christ, with Christ as head of our chapel’s, admire Lewis Black’s Calvinist outbursts, and we all wish we had the balls to act out the same way. 

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

We finally have a season, with the Cubs still in a position to take their division title, after June. And, all our local press can do, is publish endless speculations, such as comparing this year’s team, to last year’s team, playing the Arizona Diamondbacks. There is no comparison between this year’s team and last year’s, and certainly that comparison cannot have helped in the middle of a hitting slump.

These things happen, I do not know of a baseball team, of which ever went undefeated. No one ever wins them all, in the game of baseball. With hockey and basketball, following closely, and auto racing being one area where we can be sure of how little anyone wins every race, by the constant complaining about Jeff Gordon, winning too frequently, if he wins at all. And, even Richard Petty, did not win them all. So, we can be certain the Cubs have a record to be proud of, as even with Pinella reworking the entire team, to get them all in shape, our Cubs, never lost their lead in their division. And now, if the whole team gets working, as planned, we actually have a chance of winning a playoff series. Pinella is right, it will take the whole team playing well, to win a playoff series.

Let’s not give up on our Cubs, here in Chicago, we have a real chance to make history. However, our biggest fear is that the losers in a World Series to our Cubs will become more famous than we will. Things like this tend to make the loser famous. We might be hearing things, in broadcast, forever, such as, “Like the Red Sox team that lost to the Cubs in the 2008 World Series…” 

My own favorite, for the World Series opponent, is Tampa Bay, I would love to see our Cubs come back to beat them in a World Series, after being swept, earlier this year. Of course, we also had trouble with the Angels. And, there we can only hope, I think I saw their lead, since last week, in their division slip from 10 to 9.

Please, however, do note, that when the Angels won their first pennant, I can be quoted as having said, ”If the Angels can win a World Series, anyone can, maybe, now the Cubs will win one.”

Sung to the tune of, Band of Gold

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

All I Want Is A Band of Gold

I2U

Ever since you walked by,

All I want is a band of gold,

I walk the road

To where we marry,

And become one,

Go on a honeymoon,

And never return.

All I dream of is a band of gold,

And a marriage that will never end,

Every since you walked by,

All I want is a band of gold,

I walk the road

To where we marry,

And become one.

You walked by,

And looked me in the eye,

Said, “Marriage only will do me right!”

Now I cannot sleep my lonely night,

Looking for you on the road,

To where we marry, and become one!

 © 2008 Mark Robert Gates

For Julie,

Quiscent mind,

Quiddity love.

Love,

Mark

After, the violence in Chicago, we have experienced, and in the interest of promoting world peace, I propose everyday, now, and retroactive to July 4, 1776, be known as:

J.F.K., Justice Day

Also, there is,

Martin Luther King Jr., All Saints Day 

Abraham Lincoln, World Martyrs Day

American Veterans Killed in the Line of Duty, Fallen Soldier’s Day

World Equal Opportunity, Rosie the Riviter’s Day

If one insists on separating out, Racial Equality, Day-O-Day

World Police and Fire Fighters, One Burning Day After Another Day

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates, apostle Gideon

I, recently read a post by Erica Jong, on Huffington Post, about apologizing for nudity. After, another Vanity Fair, photo shoot was deemed by some to be too revealing, of the female form.

Dear Erica,

God is not apologizing for creating the female form, so you and all others should not be apologizing for revealing you have a female form.

Also, the human male and female were obviously invented as a sex machine, and we are designed to operate that sex machine, in our present form. All, of the pleasures of taste and sensation, including orgasm built in, so God intended for this machine to be used, for sex. All creatures great and small, mate, and in humans we call that mating, a marriage.

Please, do not apologize for your nudity, nor your female form, anylonger. If, God wishes, He will apologize for His creation, not us.

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates 

For Pricilla, 

We met on yes,

When we asked on glance,

For what has chance?

Marry me dress,

Tuxedo perchance,

What will we; dance?

With what do bless?

From here to eternity

Everlasting perhaps,

Or, Eternal rapture?

From here to therinity

Will it be one’s laps?

Perhapture to Rapture,

The total serenity of,

A wedding beds dance,

On a honeymoons Chance?

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

Some ask for a shorter version of the bible,

They want a faster read, so here goes…

The Essential Paraphrase:

Fuck only yourself.

Or the knuckle rapping Catholic version:

You only fuck yourself.

Or, the pleasant New American Standard:

Please do not fuck your neighbor.

Or, the Amplified:

Fuck [harm, screw over, treat maliciously, murder, maim,

rape, batter, throttle, steal from, commit adultery with,

masturbate, abandon to starvation, economically deprive]

only [a - everyone else = x, where a and x equal you, and,

everyone else does not] yourself [the only known looked

out for #1]. Please do not [just do not do it] fuck [harm,

screw over, treat maliciously, murder, maim, rape, batter,

throttle, steal from, commit adultery with, masturbate,

abandon to starvation, economically deprive] your neighbor

[a - x = everyone else, where a and x equal you, and, everyone

else = your neighbor]. You [the only known looked out for #1]

only [a - everyone else = x, where a and x equal you, and,

everyone else does not] fuck [harm, screw over, treat

maliciously, murder, maim, rape, batter, throttle, steal from,

commit adultery with, masturbate, abandon to starvation,

economically deprive] yourself [the only known looked

out for #1].

Or, the Living Bible:

Be the one fucked, if you are fucking someone.

Or, the New King James:

Only, yourself, be fucked when doing so.

The Wiccan Steal

Some may know the Wiccan Read:

Harm no one, do what ye will.

Does this statement contradict in any way, teaching of god, in His Holy Bible?

I am going to propose lying everything side by side of which claims:

To have been written by the hand of God, or by God’s instruction.

And, then using the same rules as we do for the bible:

Determine the validity of these claims.

Then collect together those texts of which pass the tests.

I am, also, going to steal another idea from the Wiccan’s.

I am going to propose the creation of the:

Family Bible

Which sits alongside the Holy Bible,

However, contains your family writings.

Your own:

Genesis

Exodus

Leviticus: Festival Guide

Deuteronomy: Laws [be careful here, listen to the Lord over law]

Numbers: the membership of Aunt Pam’s tribe, etc.

Joshua: Taking the Land

Judges: Taking the Stand

Kings: Historical Biographies

Psalms: Devotions

Proverbs: Lessons

Gospels, Acts, and Epistles

Also, any Revelations

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

What, do we do now, when we want a book on self-help? We, go on down to Borders, and stand in the self-help section, and try to decide which one book is going to affect a miracle cure. Of, hundreds of thousands of titles, we believe there is one book, of which, we will use to turn our tide and make us mighty. After, starring at titles for a while, we give up, and head on over to the coffee shop, and order for ourself’; a triple mocha. As, we sit starring into our mochascope, we begin to wonder if we are beyond help.

Everyone, says self-esteem is important, however, others say, we need to be more positive to get ahead. As, we sit tossing back and forth over which book to begin on, there seems to be no answer. Yet, if we really want to be as good as we can best be, there is a possibly, almost simple, answer. Read both books. One, on self-esteem, and one, on positive thinking. And, as long as we do not confuse one with the other, both may work together, to make a more powerful us. In fact, it just may be impossible, to change one, without changing the other.

Though, positive affirmations, will help us think better of ourselves, and positive self-love, can point us to positive success. Combining, both, positive thinking, and higher self-worth, can be, even more helpful for us, to paint in the numbers, and have our future become; one’s now thornless rose. There are many ways, to have, both, in proper proportion, to help give our ship, a bow, and a stern, and no matter what we think of ourselves, we will get nowhere, if we believe we have a bleak tomorrow.

I, recommend, Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway, by Susan Jeffers, Ph.D., http://www.susanjeffers.com/, for a pathway, to more positive thinking. With her help, we can almost psycho-surgically, remove negative thoughts from our mind. Then, for self-esteem, I recommend, The Six Pillars of Self-Esteem, by Nathaniel Branden, http://www.nathanielbranden.com/. His book, will work to give us skills, necessary, to love ourselve’s, with an unconditional self-love. While together, both books, will be capable of cementing in us, a more positive self-esteem, and point us into a positive future, we almost magically, will be more certain to enjoy.

For myself, positive thinking helped me to begin writing again, and led to being asked to take, Appreciative Inquiry Training, an organizational; positive thinking course. And, help plan a new future, for our local mental healthcare provider. Another course, also, developed to build on strengths already existing, and avoid focusing on our past problems. And, I am now invited to share my opinion, to help point ships, like a lighthouse, away from unseen beaches, with jagged reefs.

Higher self-esteem, helped to create in myself, an understanding of how much my opinions mattered. I began, writing many articles and essays, moreover, many people began coming to me, and telling of how much they had been affected by, many positive’s, in my writing. Which, led to even more people asking my opinion.

Most of us, can be, in need of help; putting ourselves behind our ships wheel, and steering a course out of, our past psychosocial fogs. I have, benefited from both positive thought’s, and a better view’s of myself, in a way of which, neither could have done so by itself. I, see clearly now, not only love for my past, in my present moment, also, pathways and open doors, into a future of happiness. There, are fewer obstacles, since most of my hindrances were self-created, and what might lie ahead, a collection of phantasms I feared, more than this; I am happy to be me. -Mark Robert Gates, Copyright 2001

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates 

Self-Esteem and Me! - (?&^%$!*!?*?$%!*??^&!?#*@#@??!!).

Is the issue self-esteem or positive thinking? Well…It is!!! Once again after this post I will repost my writing on needing to change both to change one.  

Without changing positive thinking it is almost impossible to change self-esteem, and visa vise. Now…for…positive, or work on esteem issues…  If I work on esteem issues, and make no change… I lack positive energy. 

However, If, I cause to propel by positives…  A change, in my location, only, I fail to note my lack of esteem for the past location… Positively failing at self-esteem issue #1, for #1. 

I seek validation for issue two… Is my location correct… No you idiot, you are at the library typing this. Not changing self-esteem… 

And, not moving positives to better locations, past and present… Removes issues not.  Whatever I lack…I have no knowledge of now… And, whatever I am positive about, I have no clue. 

So, therefore, I change both, to change one.

However, the exact formula here, I have no inkling of…

The Journey
by Mary Oliver

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice–
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.

It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do–
determined to save
the only life you could save.

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates
The Journey Of Love

I can only live my own life.
I can only love my own wife, or wives,
There may be others who love her, as well,
However, she can only know my love
From me,
Through me,
In me,
And, by me.
I can only know her love
From her,
Through her,
In her,
And, by her.

We can each only know, each the others love,
And, not the love felt for another,
As, we can only feel the love for another, we feel, for them,
And, we can only feel the, love there for us.
No one other can love for us,
So no one can judge our love’s of, with, in and by another’s.

During my move to chicago, I was inadvertently, or verdently, it depends on who you ask, admitted to a hopsital with a heart rate, going over 200 beats per minute. They did a stress test, and thought there might be blockages of the arteries on my upper heart, however, a cardio-cath, yesterday, shows no blockage.

Another, all others and one: hallelujah!!!!!!!….Again!!!!!!

I will now have to have an ultrasound, done by putting a device down my throat, to determine what is causing the heart to beat afib, in an irregular rythym. The possibility exists, electric, shock from a device, might cause my heart to beat correctly, again. There are some people from my childhood, who should not know, poking me with an electric cattle prod, is good for my heart. For those who wanted to prove they could do anything they wanted, I was goo in their hands, even without a cattle prod.

I will apparently be alright though. 

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

I always fall for the magic,

Turning all my loves tragic,

I destroy the wanting,

By…

Masking all the feeling,

My…

Heart Love’s based on logic,

I…

 lie to all of us,

For we are to discuss

My falling for the magic,

And…

turning all our love…

Tragic.

I always fall for the magic,

But, Today…

Love won’t have to be tragic,

For…

 I can change my ways,

And…

 Can I take your hand?

Will you marry me?

And…

Will you take my hand?

And…

Will you express to me

Your desire too Desiree,

And…

take to hand

In marriage,

And..

Be my love?

- Insert Verses In Spanish -

- Follow With Musical  Verses and Interlude -

I always fall for the magic,

Can I take your hand?

Will you marry me?

And…

Will you take my hand?

And…

Will you express to me

Your desire too Desiree,

And…

take to hand

In marriage,

And… 

Be my love?

I always fall for the magic,

 Can I take your hand?

Will you marry me?

And…

Will you take my hand?

And…

Will you express to me

Your desire too Desiree,

And…

take to hand

In marriage,

And… 

Be my love?

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

When I Fall In Love

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When I fall in love

I fall so deep,

A fall so steep

The fall from above

Is into a pit,

Bottomless is it,

Empty space below above,

Limitless deep the love.

I cannot stop the fall,

For there is no help,

No cry, shelter, or help,

Of which, we can use, will call

A stop to our fall in love,

When we both fall in love,

From the wells lip so tall,

When we see the other’s fall.

When I fall in love

I fall so deep,

A fall so steep

The fall from above

Is into a pit,

Bottomless is it,

Empty space below above,

Limitless deep the love.

If you fall in love with me,

Irrepressible, will be our life,

Will we live in love, my wife?

As, I propose to you with glee,

Whenever, you I’m seeing,

In all my dreams, I’m forseeing,

Shall we marry in polygamy?

Will you marry me for our eternity?

When I fall in love

I fall so deep,

A fall so steep

The fall from above

Is into a pit,

Bottomless is it,

Empty space below above,

Limitless deep the love.

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

Handy hallelujahs, are plentiful, as I enjoy the Chicago skyline, from my window, I can see the Sears Tower. And, I find myself imagining a full assault with shredders, as an amusment, I laugh for all their security, since, flying in from other buildings or a chopper, is thrilling thought. If only one could stop when close, and not strike antenna or glass, too fast. And, of course I would have named it, “The Doppleganger.” I envision there a film like, “The Eiger Sanction,” except the goal is climbing the “Doppleganger,” their code name for the Sears Tower.

Also, I enjoy my new friends and their friendship is invaluable. I love, again!

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

Today’s Jewish geography question is:

Is that normal or abnormal?

Being an alien like L. Ron Hubbard is normal and excuses one from salvation by grace.

Being an informant for, men in; black, is not.

Trying to take it to another level is normal…

Using an escalator or an elevator is not.

Putting yourself first is normal…

Pulling yourself up by the bootstraps is not.

Resting on your laurels is normal…

Being lifted up to your laurels by the lapels is not.

Playing the lottery is normal…

Winning the whole schlemiel is not.

Forgetting someone’s name is normal…

Not knowing your own is not.

Mulling over the whole lot is normal…

Forking over the whole pie is not.

Praying for the good life is normal…

Believing in the good life is not.

Having, yourself, a ball is normal…

Having it all to, yourself, is not.

Having yourself a, Merry, little Christmas is normal…

Actually, having it with Mariah Carey is not.

Believing in Santa Claus is normal…

Trusting someone with a stuffed sock is not.

Finding eternal peace is normal…

Knowing God: requiring; Revelation, is not.

And, furthermore, nothing is normal, or abnormal, all things are existent in only regular or super-size. Only then: are all things truly possible.

Therefore, the real question is:

Is that regular or super-size?

Between stimulus and repose we have a choice: to live or to die, however, we do not regularly choose life daily. Instead, we all, will normally super-size ourselves to death.

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

I frequently struggle, when explaining bipolar manic swings, to describe the difference between manic, and obsessive-compulsive behavior.

So, here is: Your obsessed, no wait…manic.

If one: puts his hat in the same rack; everyday, at every stop, without variation…one: may be; obsessed…however,

If one: has to wear the hat; online, in every video chat, manic.

If one: takes the wheel to drive; every time one is in a car…obsessed, however,

If one: has to have the car in; Detroit by Tuesday, manic.

If Valerie grew up to be the hot chick, one: never; noticed before…obsessed, however,

If one: knows; Valerie, got married and divorced, and wants his chance, manic.

If one: still wants; Valerie’s mother more…obsessed, however,

If one: knows; Valerie’s mother is available whenever Valerie is, manic.

If power is a guiding principle to live by…obsessed, however,

If power is the prenuptial to life’s existence, manic.

If potent is a supply of anything…obsessed, and however,

If potent is not a supply, but the supplier, manic.

If pretence is foreplay…obsessed, however,

If pretence is: not to be; considered foreplay, that’s manic.

If I know God as Father and Jesus as my Lord…obsessed, however,

If I know the entire Trinity is in the bible, know where to find it, and believe and follow the group, and also, know why, manic full tilt.

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates

What is the difference, between ADHD and bipolar? Is, a common question, for Psychiatrists, and I am told, there is much misdiagnosis. So, in the interest of clearing up things, from a client perspective, here is:

You might be ADHD…or maybe you’re bipolar…

If one: cannot shut up, about, how much more; intelligent, one: is, than the; teacher…You may be ADHD…however,

If one: dismisses the teacher, and begins; teaching class…bipolar.

If one: beats up Bill, for; Hillary’s behavior…ADHD, however,

If one: puts, them self; in Bill’s place, and, loves her; just the same…bipolar.

If one: spells every word wrong, and punctuates, with; too many commas, colons or semi colons…ADHD, however,

If one: invents, Greek and Latin; phraseology, to back up, one’s: spelling and grammar’s…bipolar.

If one: expounds on; virtue’s, of a physics text, or; lack there of…ADHD, however,

If one: claims to know correct, Latin; terminology, for a physics text…bipolar.

If one: power-lifts; economics theory…ADHD, however,

If one: banks; on it…one is bipolar, Jewish, or both.

If the, Truth’s; of which set one: free, of which Christ; teaches, set one: free…
ADHD, however,

If one’s: freedom requires, knowing: God, as the God’s, of which, Truth’s; set one: free…bipolar.

© 2008 Mark Robert Gates, Apostle Gideon

I have completed my move to Chicago, even though I am presently enrolled in a YMCA program, to give myself time to find an affordable, four wall hovel, in north; Chicago. I, however, did fall in love with, Chicago!

Even, in the dead of winter, people get out and walk here, walking all over town, from the south border of downtown, to way up north beyond the North Shore, I found, more friendly people, willing to stop and say hello, than I did, in 25 years in Los Angeles, California. Also, all of my favorite models, from, those who do my favorite erotic photography, to even some of my favorite top fashion, New York models, all, either live here, or visit here, enough, they get out to walk, a lot. I have prayed, forever, when looking at most models, for a chance to meet her in person, and if the Good Lord Smiles on us, and she is willing; marry, moreover, as far as knowing models, personally, I always have a want and desire, to be the guy: in whom; she loves and holds dear, and is present, in the back of the model’s, eyes, and in her mind, her beau, instead, of anyone, for whom the photo is posed. If, by now there are people, who still do not believe in God’s of our’ Bible’s, answering prayers, please do not look me up in Chicago for a while.

I came here, wanting to visit, to check out literary agents, since, a vision had warned me, trying to sign with an entertainment agent, would lead to their, the entertainer’s agents, not wanting me to branch into writing and other pursuits, so much so, they would hamper efforts to find literary, and film and television writer’s agents, with misinformation and false leads. And, knowing good literary agents will be found in New York, and good film and television, agents will be in Los Angeles, or Hollywood, I simply checked out the false leads, and confirmed that all, Chicago area, entertainment agencies, will not give out, or even admit to knowing any such other agents, or agencies, therefore, not wanting to be an actor, per se, I decided to forego, the obvious error, of making an appointment with the wrong agency. So, I will have to conduct a search now, from Chicago, for Hollywood writer’s agents, interested in selling my writing to film and television.

Any who are interested, in anything they hear, as, I give all my ideas to God, and, He gives many of them to me, so, therefore, if one asks God: He will reveal what we are working on for film and television, unless, one who asks, is a literary, film or television writing; thief.

If one is interested in film and television agency of Mark Robert Gates:

Contact: Mark Robert Gates; mr.gates@benevolentlybeloved.com

I still plan to travel to Great Britain, To meet El Zanza Bar, however to visit and stay, a VISA is necessary, and I want to remain there as long as I like, and if I want and desire to, become a British Citizen, and of course to be able to be legally married to El Zanza Bar, while she is a British citizen, and I an American. However, I also, now love Chicago, and especially as a place to live and write, moreover, even more than England, I have dreams of spending time in other countries as well.

Besides, spring to fall in Great Britain, Ireland and Scotland, there is spring to fall in other countries as well, such as: Greece, Italy, Switzerland, The Slavic areas, especially Prague, Germany; the Bavarian areas, France, Spain, and the Netherlands, and other northern countries, as well as Hungary, Romania, and Turkey, and the Middle East, is a constant draw, when the civil war and Jihads are all over with, and there is peace amongst my people, again, I will enjoy much pleasure, within my cultural homelands.

Also, if the dreams of going to Great Britian come true, as did the ones so far of moving to Chicago, my wives and I will either fill and entire airplane, or cruise ship, when we go to Great Britain, for El Zanza Bar’s wedding to her beloved Fatih. 

© 2007 Mark Robert Gates, apostle Gideon

On Saturday, December 28, 2007, I met an old therapist, I saw for hypnotherapy, when I had needed to unlock and resolve, issues of which, had gone too long unresolved. Our, meeting was as three attempts to get together socially, had been, in the past, a disaster. We are not meant for each other, we are as different as the sky is from water, and she attempts to change me into what she wants, rather than accepting me as I am. When I was seeing Pam, she forbad me to marry Pam. In this get together, she thought, we would be together, even after three other friends present combined spirits with me, and became engaged, and she forbad those marriages, as well, and sought to end them, and ended up somehow, still, believing, somehow, I would be with her, instead of all my wives. She even at one point, rebuked me for voice fully, continuing to win all our arguments and debates, about everything, and for interrupting her, to do so, claiming, I would never have any friends if I continued to do so. Clearly, when a person’s engaged to as many, as I am now, and someone thinks one has no friends, one’s belief, one is going to be together with that person, is severely mistaken.

During our get together, after agreeing, the belief God does not exist is the delusion, not the belief He does, she continued to debate every biblical topic, with student’s arguments over whether God’s of our Bible’s was correct in what His bible says, and His Word’s: Is correct, or wrong. I still am not certain, if she was only playing devils advocate, always, as at times, I know she, was, except there are points where I noticed she would not be able to use the bible for reference, and in the end ended up asking me to point out where, a bible says, what I spoke of as God’s of our Bible’s Word’s. A student, only, needs this to be done, and at one point in our argument and debate, she asked me to obey, her, and not God’s of our Bible’s, so she is not a believer and follower of Christ. And, she claimed to be pastor of a church, even though she only agues: God’s of our Bible’s is wrong, in our entire debate, until I show, she cannot shake me from His Word’s, then concedes a point. And, I ended up having to point out, even Jesus, had to be a student, first, as He went to the temple, to learn Hebrew history and law, instead of staying with His family, when they left the home to observe Passover, and no one becomes a master, unless a student, first, is the last thing she conceded.

So, now I must do as a master, does, and as the Master, dictates, and point out: if one wants to know from which Scriptures in God’s of our Bible’s Word’s, He: says good is, God’s of our Bible’s, anything God’s of our Bible’s created, and being good with God’s of our Bible’s, and receiving His, blessings, gifts and Promises, including providence of what one wishes and wants, to ask, seek and knock, desires for delighting in God’s of our Bible’s, and needs, without even having to ask, and evil cannot be forgiven, rape and murder are evil, and never forgiven, wrong is considering God’s of our Bible’s wrong, and is evil, and sin is even evil and unforgivable, if preplanned to be forgiven, before committing it, one needs to look it up by oneself, on one’s own and study God’s of our Bible’s Word’s, until one knows.

I hope if she read this, or hears of this writing, she will understand, I will not call again, until she has carried out the Master’s assignment, and knows all of these Scriptures, from which God’s of our Bible’s clearly states the above, and then will only accept her as a student of the Master, as all she asked of me, our entire time together, was to become a student of the Master.

Below, I print some stuff, I found in a journal of mine, I was keeping, the year I entered bible school, to learn the bible from a master.

From a journal I kept in the fall of 1997:

* Added for clarity, in parenthesis, or to clarify my meaning, and as to what was on my mind, I was referring to at the time.

** Already in parenthesis, when I wrote this, in my journal

For those who are afraid they’re going to screw things up in service to the Lord: you; have seriously deluded yourself, if you believe you have enough power to screw up God’s plans (I used to have severe self-doubts myself, I would trust God of our Bible’s, and Christ, and His Holy Spirit, completely, and unshakably, and with my life, however, I would doubt my ability, and fear like Moses, I would strike the rock twice, instead of once, or misspeak what He gave me to speak, and screw up something, I, however, never did, and now know, neither did Moses, Moses, too, failed to screw up God’s of our Bible’s plans, and only fucked himself out of all of Israel, as his reward.*).

God is a healer; He wants to heal you.

Place your complete trust and confidence in God.

In God and Christ and the Holy Spirit is my only confidence. If I believe on the Lord for healing, I have faith.

It doesn’t require faith on your part (meaning faith in myself*) to be healed, because it doesn’t require any action on your part (meaning actions of my own) to gain God’s love. If we had to nurture God’s love (in order*) to keep it alive, we’d all be in a lot of trouble.

I found out this afternoon, (through experience*) that the only way to get (to where one can feel*) a really strong presence of the; Lord, is to get in a big group, together, and worship and pray to God. If you go off by yourself (to a private place, to first seek the presence of God, rather than amongst, two or more, who are gathered in His name*), the presence of: God, will not be as strong. (So*), the only way to get a really strong presence of God (to be something one recognizes*), is to be part of a large group (the first time one seeks to experience the presence of God*), the larger the group the better. God can’t give, all of His presence (His entire being, as presented, in what is referred to as; His presence being visible/known*) to just you alone, because His presence is reserved for the entire crowd of Christians (believers and followers of Christ, as God of our Bible’s Son, amongst an assembly of believers and followers of Christ, with Christ as head*), past, present and future. The more strongly you are a part of that crowd, the more strongly God of our Bible’s is going to be present, even when (again*) you are alone (to spend time with God’s of our Bible’s in closeted communion*).

All, the devil offers you when he tempts you are delusions. Remember, when the serpent tempted Eve (Even though this story was created by God’s of our Bible’s, when those in the Vatican, requested something other then the Hebrew Scriptures, to place in their bible, it is still a parable created by God’s of our Bible’s to be placed there*) (This is recorded in Vatican history, and not disputed by any bible scholars*), what did he tempt her with? The belief, that she would be as God (’s of our Bible’s*) was, if she ate the fruit of the tree of the fruit of knowledge of good and evil. The bible, says Eve looked at the fruit, and saw it was pleasing, and good to eat, it doesn’t say whether or not she believed the tempting of the serpent, if she did all she was left with, was sin and delusions. You could argue, that everyone who: sins, is mentally ill (if mental illness, is believing delusions*), as well as fallen from the glory of God (’s of our Bible’s*).

September 9, 1997 – Why haven’t we all been called home, why hasn’t the Lord come back? God (’s of our Bible’s*) is patient; He’s waiting for you. He waits for all of us (those who have chosen God’s of our Bible’s, Son, and believe and follow and obey Him as head*)!

Losses: the eternal death of my father (my pseudo-father, not the murdering fuck who killed my mother*), the loss of my mental well being, and the loss of a close friend (to*) (**death**) (this would be the mortal death and martyring of Barbara Ignace*).

Loss and gain: what I once considered gain, I now consider loss, for instance, the loss of my delusions, I now consider gain. The gain of a secular career, I now consider loss – it would not be my calling, and being outside my calling would be a great loss (**as it has been in the past**).

My struggle in, recovery, has been to let go of all my false selves, and embrace the God (’s of our Bible’s), given gifts in me.

Last night, after prayer for healing (during a private prayer session, after a our assembly’s service*) to continue, and God (’s of our Bible’s*) anointing to go with me (forward from my receiving: Christ, and His anointing given me, in His service, to Him*) (**and being anointed with oil, for both (prayers*)**), I felt parts of my heart come alive, dead tissue was regenerated.

(Unfortunately at this point I ended, stopping, and no longer kept the journal, I had attempted to begin, and did not continue journaling my discoveries about myself, as I studied His Word’s.*)

© 2007 Mark Robert Gates, apostle Gideon

There are three martyrs who live inside me, all of who, chose a marriage in heaven, over a marriage on earth for personal reasons, and chose to give their lives, so those who are evil, would be clearly known in all reports of what happened, in their lives. Yet, there are those who wish to speak to me of respect for women, while openly attacking them, and there are three inside me, who gave their lives, who can guide me to evidence and proof, of their, demise, being disrespectful, of women. And, there are scars on my thighs, because, a group of men, unwilling to suck on my cock, for my wives, found it bright and funny, to put a caustic, chemical in my laundry, causing third degree, chemical burns, on my thighs and buttocks. And, still yet, these moron, insane deadfucks, attempt to misrepresent themselves as representatives, of God’s of our Bible’s, and they wish to speak to me about respect for women, when all my wives, know nothing but, respect, trust, honor, and obedience, from, this person, Mark Robert Gates, they know and love as the husband they wish to, and are engaged to marry.

This is their story, the story of the three martyrs, who wished a marriage in heaven, and not one on earth, who gave their lives, so the evil involved in the attack on my lives, those of my wives, and I, and God’s of our Bible’s Way’s, would always, be clearly identified and defined.

Barbara Ignace,

When I met her she had emphysema, and was still being allowed to smoke, by those giving her care. She would carefully, turn off the oxygen, move it away from her, remove the breathing tube and have a cigarette. I had been introduced to her, by a home health care nurse, who had said, she wanted to introduce me to a friend, however, she really, meant, we want you to sit here and watch her die. I could not stop her, from smoking, none of us who loved her could, however, we respected her wishes, that if she were going to die, anyway, she would rather smoke, while she could, and enjoy a cigarette. So, we did not try to talk her out of it, and all gave her our attentions, knowing life was precious, and making every moment count on earth, for her and us, so as to be what she wished.

We, all enjoyed those last days, and months we spent together, and we all watched helplessly, as local, inept, out of hospital, care, killed her, and by giving her care designed to kill her. First, they put her in an apartment by herself, and not a nice assisted living home, of which would have forced her not to smoke, for her health. We, respected her wishes, of smoking while she could, however, those responsible for her health care, allowed it, and did not arrange an assisted living situation, of which would not have, and so she would smoke, wanting her to die, murdered, instead. These people, gave her a machine for breathing treatments to use on her own unsupervised, however, I later found they gave her no instructions as to how often to do the treatments, and what consequences there might be of taking treatments too frequently. In the end, she was trying to give herself breathing treatments, every 15 to 20 minutes, and when I asked, did not know if that would cause any harm, or not, and not being a physician, I could not counter what she was doing, and when I found out, there was not enough time, to find out if harm could come of it, before she died.

The people, treating her, however, outside of hospital care, had not bothered to tell her, whether, or not breathing treatments, taken too frequently were harmful, and the dangers of doing breathing treatments, while smoking, or especially after, have a cigarette. And, had left her alone, without any home health care attendants at all, and with the breathing machine, for treatments, and only oxygen supplied for her, in a central tank, and to fill tanks, for use when not at home. They left her supplied, and arranged to leave her there to die.

When, I met Barbara, she had a different home health care service, and the nurse, from the one, of which was, giving me home health care, was not her nurse, nor was her service, the one, of which she used. This, nurse, of which had brought me to be her friend, and I had not understood, I was just supposed to watch her die, and not be her friend, later actually became her home health nurse, herself. Her, service, somehow, since Barbara only used, Medicaid and Medicare, and one, often, is powerless to choose who, one’s health care comes from, Barbara, on such public help, had her first home health service, cut of, by this nurses service, and they were allowed to take over.

This nurse had once invited me to her home, for an evening, and overnighter, and had made advances on me, in front of her, husband, she also, lacked the ability, to draw blood, from a person, entirely, and could not find a vein, if her life depended on it. She would often, in fact every time I mentioned I needed a blood draw, would offer, in her home to do the blood draw, however, she was rarely successful, as she could not find a vein. I had to stop, going to do so, by refusing, and then finally, just never told her when, I needed a blood draw, since she would still offer, even though, she was not in a lab, and bringing the blood drawn to a lab, in her purse, was more dangerous a risk, than necessary, given the availability, of blood labs.

She, once told me when we were alone together, in her house, the first time she tried to take an anatomy test, she failed, unable to memorize, all the body parts, necessary, and when home and hit the bottle, instead. She then said, she sobered, up, quit drinking, and eventually, by pasting body parts all over the house on notes, to pass, an anatomy test. And, yet she was still, pursuing this degree, she was a home health care, nurse, and working, on my case, had got her labeled, psych nurse, in a lanyãp, of the worst consequences.

She, managed when, their service, got Barbara’s care, to claim, Barbara needed a psych nurse, and she was a qualified psych nurse, in home health, care, of which could not draw blood, if her life depended, on it. So, we now had Barbara, being treated by a jealous nurse, who had not wished me to be her friend, only that I watch her die. This new home health service, decided, prudence was to tell Barbara, if she smoked, at all, they would stop seeing her, and giving her care. This, of course, is how they wished to leave her, without care, as they knew she wished to smoke, even if she was going to die, and enjoy the cigarette, while she could.

A problem, however, now existed, Barbara, had gotten ill, and with her smoking and the illness, ended up in the hospital, this hospital’s, staff, had convinced her to stop smoking, altogether, as it was getting too dangerous to do so. She was moved from the hospital, to a nursing home during her recovery, and was not smoking at all, when she returned home, to be told by this nurse and that services staff, if she smoked, they would abandon, her, and give her no more care. We, tried to talk her, into moving into, a nice assisted living home, and we even visited, one, and she like everything, except two things went wrong. We, had with us a friend, who had, an aneurysm, and continues to make things worse, by not knowing his limitations, and tries to take stressful positions, as an occupation, from time to time, only to discover, stress, makes him, ill. At one point, he was, almost totally deaf, from having caused too much stress, in one such attempt, to take a position, too stressful for his condition.

Now, he was with us, when we visited this home with, Barbara, and complained openly, while there, they had not been good to him while he was in treatment there, and nobody, ever even did so, as however, we all know, he is the poor patient, not the one who receives poor, or insufficient care. However, we had him with us, and his attitude, was severely socially embarrassing, at the nursing home, and so embarrassed, was Barbara at the thought of his visiting, with that attitude, she was wishing a way to avoid, his visits, or living there. Also, the home, itself made one mistake, they asked Barbara, knowing she was suffering from emphysema, if she planned to smoke, while living there, and Barbara, said yes, and they led her to believe, they would allow it, even though I am certain, they’d have not. And, then later, after we left the home, when, our sick friend was making his arguments over the evilness of the establishment, as they were not at his beck and call, all day, as he wished, and it was a poor home, and Barbara should not move there. I could not, argue she should, as the home had deceived her, about smoking, and I did not want her to, and go through the torture, of being led to believe she would be allowed to smoke, while she lived, there, when moving in, only to discover, after, they would not allow it. Had, they been honest, I believe Barbara would have been able to be talked into moving there, and continuing not to smoke, however, another seed had been planted, and Barbara believed she could once again smoke, the way she had before, and had no knowledge of the danger of breathing treatments, while smoking, especially, right after a cigarette, nor did, I. And, at this time, I had no knowledge it was even possible for her to smoke a cigarette, and take a breathing treatment, right after. As, I did not know she was taking breathing treatments, at all.

Of course, Barbara, now believing the real health care people’s, admonishment, about smoking to be too dangerous, to be false, and her own desire to smoke, being to powerful, had a home health service, of which would abandon her, and allow her to smoke, if she got caught smoking. She, would die a martyr because, they were trying to kill, her, and at this point agreed with God’s of our Bible’s, that if they actually abandoned her for the cigarette, and killed her, she would die a martyr, if she followed His instructions, so as to leave those clearly evil, in this story, so that no matter how it is told, and by whom, who is evil, will be undeniable. This is the reason for martyrs, not suffering a cross, or bearing cross, like Christ, however, leaving such a story, when gone, the story no matter how told, will always, clearly identify and define, who was evil. Now, Barbara, had been offered martyrdom, by God’s of our Bible’s, and had a chance to die, the way she wished, by smoking the cigarettes, she enjoyed, while still on earth. And, I now know, it was the most merciful way for her to die, in the given situation, as she would have died, anyway, of clogged lungs, when taking breathing treatments, too frequently. And, more slowly and more painfully, as this kind of clogging is not like pneumonia, and does not clear up, in time, or go away, and is always irreversible. Like the disease, where, dust particles, so small, of which, they can settle in one’s lungs, cause anti-bodies, so strong to form, they devour, the internal organs, and never the dust itself.

This happened the year, I first attended Taylor University, an interdenominational, bible college, to learn the bible, from a master. I had, decided, in my bible reading, I was often rereading the same passages, and not certain, of what I was supposed to be, understanding, from those passages. So, I arranged through, a benefactor, who had agreed to pay for college, if wished to go to college, to go to Taylor University, to learn the correct interpretation of Scripture, from a master. Which, is why, I chose the tougher teacher, Dr. Wes Gerig, to my satisfaction, over any other, even, when I had a choice, and was told of whom, would be an easier teacher. I did not wish an easier, teacher, I wished correct, understanding and interpretation, of Scripture. And, I learned, this from, a definite master, in that he, taught me, to think, and know Scripture, not question it, and often when I went to his office to ask questions, I was the student, questioning what I had read. Dr. Gerig, taught me, to not question what I read, understand, and know the truth from Scripture, and as God’s of our Bible’s Word’s, and, listen to Him for its interpretation, and application, to my life. I now, teach biblical interpretation, not from a pulpit, or podium, or to those sitting behind a desk, as Dr. Gerig does, Instead, I teach it openly, in all real life situations, to those, of whom, know enough of His Word’s truth, to be able to apply it, to their lives.

As, I began taking my first course, the only course I signed up for, called Biblical Literature 1, which is essentially, Old Testament Survey, however, people without bible knowledge at the school wanted something classy, as always, creating an argument, between the knowing and the classy, as to whether or not, the truth, is better served by the truth. And, the argument, the truth is its Old Testament Survey, and every student looking for Old Testament Survey, ends up having to ask, anyway, “Which course is Old Testament Survey?” As, I did. They, still claim, classy better serves the school, and their system, even if not serving the Lord better, as its their system, not the Lord’s, students have to deal with. Satisfied they won, this debate, after, I asked, for the Old Testament Survey course, and got to be treated like an idiot for not knowing its, “Biblical Literature 1,” They then enrolled me in the course, of which would train me, and teach me the bible, and remove the idiot from me, anyway. And, I did learn, what I went to Taylor, to learn, and their system served them, and God’s of our Bible’s system served Him, and I serve God’s of our Bible’s service, and their classy service, and His are separate, and never the twain will meet, is why God’s of our Bible’s, allows them to run their mouth off, about their disservice to Him. It encourages, students, not to engage in that kind of profanity, and those of us willing learn, do learn the bible, and not to question it, or be profane, about its, study.

As, I began, taking Old Testament Survey, my lessons, were simple enough, and were just reading Scripture, and working on a set of questions designed to make me think about what I had read. I, ended up being invited by Barbara, to come sit up with her nights, as she was afraid of being alone, and did not want to die alone, in her apartment without any help available. So, I agreed to take the night shift, as I could do my reading, while she watched TV, and while she slept, and answer my questions, as I did my studying. She would interrupt, however, the interruptions, were not unpleasant, and often came when I needed a break, sometimes, she could not sleep and would want me to come sit with her on her bed, and talk, and keep her company. I enjoyed doing this, however, I felt uncomfortable, as I knew a friend, was interested, in her, and wanting to marry her. She, wanted me to know, she wanted me, to be with her, in a way we could be together, forever, after she died, and that we would be engaged, as she saw us engaged, and I agreed sitting on the bed, with her, meant I would marry, her, and that a marriage is what I wanted, however, we still needed to respect, our friends feelings, as he was engaged to her too, and both of us would be married in heaven, to her, now, when she passed away, as we were both engaged. Her spirit, became one with mine, after she passed away, to prove, to me, the marriage will be in heaven, and our friend will have a marriage too.

Sadly, we were only able to do this for a couple of days, and this was after she had gotten herself caught smoking, by the home health care service, so they would go away. It was not until, I began, staying nights, when she was too ill, to have had sex, in a way, we both would have enjoyed, and became engaged, that I discovered, about the breathing treatments, and her frequency of taking them, and right after smoking a cigarette. So, I never had time to find out, from a qualified physician, what harm, if any, this could cause, and not being, a physician, I could not tell her to alter what she was doing. One night after, smoking on the porch outside her, bedroom, she began trying to give herself, frequent breathing, treatments, before, I could find out what harm might come of it. That night, when morning came, and the morning shift arrived to relieve me, so I could go to Taylor, for my class that day, as the morning shift arrived, and as, I was getting together my books to go, for my class, she began having difficulty breathing. She, asked me to stay, and I put down my books, and she began trying to give herself another breathing treatment, and began, having extreme and severe difficulty breathing, of which, she could not clear up with the treatment.

Our friend had noticed, at the beginning, and went and called an ambulance, because of the difficulty breathing, and I waited with him and another friend, and her, for the ambulance. As we waited, she passed out, and was unconscious, when the ambulance arrived, I am certain she was breathing still, as the attendants did not need to revive her, and merely loaded her onto, a stretcher quickly, and began to transport her to a hospital. We, attempted to follow in my car, however, prudence, dictated slowing down, and since we, knew, where the attendants were taking her. We, just decided to go straight there, and did, so, and when we entered the hospital, in order to get to the waiting room, we passed the room where they were working on her. After, a while, a doctor came out, and we were, all, told in a private room, her lungs were too clogged, for her to survive, and she had passed away.

Carolyn (No last name given, as her husband, by certificate of law, participated, in her martyring):

Carolyn was a widow, at too young an age, and one of those widows, who became so, by having parents, who were suave, debonair, worldly, hip and people, who knew what loving was, and would allow their child, to have a lover, as this is liberating. So, Carolyn would find, young, love, only to be told, eventually, “Now its time to move to Seattle dear,” as all young widows experience, unknowing, to the way too cool parents, that even in God’s of our Bible’s eyes, the two young lovers had married, not fooled around. In America, a false, pseudo-church, has grown up, completely separated from the real church in Europe, and is always unwilling to accept the real church in Europe, as, an assembly of believers and followers of Christ, with Christ as head, of which has authority, to say who is, a believer and follower of Christ, by discerning action, of the person/s. And, when these false pseudo-church goers, are rejected, by their discernable action, as being believers and followers of Christ, with Christ as head, they then in turn try to counter reject the entire, church, worldwide.

The Catholics, had gone south to Mexico, and then up the California coast, planting missions, and were not prevalent in America, until the downfall, of California, in an act of war, by gold digging Americans. Most Americans, were the type who carried printed bibles, and attempted to sell a false Christ, and Thomas Paine, writes, The Age of Reason, and not being a believer and follower of Christ, manages to spot all their errors, simply by knowing English better, and knowing a revelation is never correctly referred to as, from one person to another, and only as from God’s of our Bible’s, to a person, such as John, in His book of Revelation. All other errors, are easily spotted, by those who know English well, and as such all the founding fathers called themselves deists, in order to reject the false Christ, being sold, by the false and pseudo-church, in America. It is always necessary in this day and age, because of the prevalence of false teaching to reject the false Christ first, on the road to accepting and knowing the real One. Thomas Paine wrote, the Age of Reason, in which he rejects the false Christ, in France, and there found the real Christ, after, and history fails to mention this, since history still attempts to rewrite Paine’s rejection of the false Christ. If one goes to the e-book, by The Project Gutenberg, one will find a typer’s, introduction, of which is almost longer than the book itself, and does not clearly note where, the book by Paine begins, and his inane ramblings end. So, argument, of which still exists, is over whether or not the false and pseudo-church is that, by trying to distort, or destroy all writing of which points that out, or make the false Christ known, to be false, in order to preserve their false Christ.

This false, pseudo-church, would first take the first step toward, forbidding all marriage, and forbid polygamy. To know if polygamy is meant to be ended by Christ, one only has to note that all authors of New Testament epistles, point out that if one becomes saved, and believes and follows Christ, and joins the assembly of believers and followers of Christ, with Christ as head, one is not to leave an unbelieving spouse, and however, remain, and hope the spouse becomes saved. Now, picture Abraham, with Sarah, and the maid she gave him as a second wife, and Jacob with four wives, or even Solomon, with his thousand wives, and ask this question “Which spouse is Abraham, Jacob, or even Solomon, supposed to remain with, in the hope the spouse will become saved?” All of them, correct? Not, just one, to leave even one would be to contradict Jesus’ Teaching’s on divorce, and that, above, instruction from all, known authors, in the New Testament. So, even though no polygamy is directly mentioned, and no polygamous marriages are noted in the New Testament Scriptures, there is clearly a commandment, not to forbid marriage, and forbidding polygamy is forbidding marriage.

This false, pseudo-church, would then make its second biggest mistake, it would begin teaching from its pulpits, marriage should be an unbreakable civil contract, not the voluntary, free will, by choice, mutual respect, love, hope, and faith, marriage, of asking, of which Abraham and Sarah had, of which, required no civil contract to keep them together for a hundred years. If it takes an unbreakable, civil contract to keep a person bound to one, one does not have what a marriage is in God’s of our Bible’s eyes. If one is capable of discernment, and knowing of this false, American pseudo-church, one will note it is now at the place where it is forbidding all marriage, altogether, and proclaiming God’s of our Bible’s marriage, of which is holy and divine, an act of evil, altogether. Claiming, now, combining ones spirit, heart, mind, and body, into a single organism, in God’s holy and divine marriage, since, it must be forced, by unbreakable civil contract, or it will not exist, or last, is not either real, or is an evil, of which, must be forced on people, against their will. And, all hold in their laps a book, of which, tells of Abraham’s and Sarah’s organism, and the hundred years together, through thick and thin, without, a bit of force, or a civil contract necessary, and, defined, in God’s of our Bible’s Word’s, as a marriage of His holy and divine design, and Abraham, a man reckoned for having righteousness, for His faith in God’s of our Bible’s alone, and Abraham’s willingness to listen, hear, and obey, God’s of our Bible’s, and his wife Sarah.

Many, also, make the mistake of thinking the child of which was given the same blessing as Isaac, when sent away, to create a different, population, means, Abraham, sinned by listening to Sarah, when in fact it was God’s of our Bible’s plan to create both peoples. And, in fact those, two peoples, of the loins of Abraham, the Hebrews and his other son’s have never fought with each other, and today, those people are the Saudis, and they still do not fight with Israel. No matter how bloody a family fight we Jews will have amongst ourselves, we, also, do not fight with, the Saudis.

Now, I say all this to point out, what Carolyn has with her beau, is a marriage in God’s of our Bible’s eyes, since it was to them, and they were of one spirit, one heart and one body, combined in a single organism, when their parents thought, they would be wise to forcibly separate them, against their will, to teach them not to marry, and be liberal adults, who fool around, occasionally. In this case, when they are separated from each other, against their will, the man, often does not live long, once he believes he will never see his spouse again, and wishes no other marriage, and he soon finds no reason to go on living, and often dies, by driving in front of a Mack truck, or having some other accident. Now, a Mack truck may around cruel, but at highway speed, although a bloody mess, one usually dies instantly when hit, broadside, by a Mack Truck. In, Carolyn’s case, by the time, she found her spouse, she found he had died, and she was now a widow, at much too young an age to be a widow.

Then, Carolyn made the mistake, of going to a church gathering, on her mother’s suggestion, and even though she, does believe and follow Christ’s: then, as she always had, and however, has a problem, she is a widow, and not a virgin. Many people, who go to church, including most men, expect to find only virgins there to marry, and Carolyn would end up with a dog in pursuit of her, who wanted a marriage, and however, believed if she would marry any other, she was a slut, and Carolyn’s already a widow. Now, in a church, building, called a church, there are three types who gather besides, believers and followers, who comprise the false, pseudo-church, of America, there are dogs, those men who want sex without mating, homosexuals and lesbians, who want partners of the same sex, and Joes, those who are heterosexual men, who dogs and homosexuals and lesbians, manage to teach, sex, even in marriage is wrong.

Carolyn, now being pursued, by a dog, who wanted a marriage to a virgin, and a not a widow, so Carolyn, needed to, get rid of him, and did so by allowing a Joe to propose to her, and showing the guy, he was not for her, since he now thought she was a slut since, she allowed someone else to propose to her, instead of him. She would eventually end up having to have a second marriage to her Joe. And, was going through this hell on earth, when I met her.

When, I met her my desire to marry her terrified her, I now know, because, her Joe would have left us alone, in the house to commit what he thought would be adultery after, giving us permission to marry, instead, of her being married to him, believing, like all false, pseudo-chucher’s, of America, it is the civil contract that makes one married, not who one gives, ones spirit, heart, mind, and body to, to combine into a single organism, by free will choice. Carolyn, was terrified, not because I would marry, her, however since, her Joe would leave her alone in the house with anyone, even a dog rapist, or a homosexual rapist, and in a way, by the time we got done making each other comfortable, Carolyn and I were engaged to be married, if not on earth, later in heaven.

Carolyn, understood two things, one: the only way we would be able to be together, in a marriage, on earth, would have required, allowing her Joe, and other false, pseudo-church of America members, to believe, and convince others we had committed adultery, and I had given up El Zanza Bar, who I had not met yet, as having a possibility, of being my spouse. She, also, knew, I would have to meet and marry my El Zanza Bar, for us to have our marriage in heaven, and we could not allow a rumor, to circulate, I had given her up for Carolyn, or there was a good chance, I would not be able to marry El Zanza Bar, when we met, as even Carolyn, would have no respect for me if she believed for one second, I have given her up, for another. I, also, knew, Carolyn, would not respect me if I gave her up, for, any, or if I would give El Zanza Bar up for any, and since during this time I met and got together with Pam, her Joe, also, wanted the end of Pam and I, for Carolyn and I, to be together, and no woman will respect a man who would break off, and give up a woman, in a relationship with him, or especially, his El Zanza Bar.

During the period, her Joe, who was a man, who liked to put on aires, and had them living in a house, of which was way too large for their family, and had many rooms sealed off and not being used, created, by the diet he forced on Carolyn, an intestinal blockage, of which, would eventually kill her, when he denied, her treatment. I witnessed, an event, in which the pastor, of this false, pseudo-church, Tom McMillan, who I mention in my post, The Interpretation of Romans, tell her, if she exposed their bringing in a hot shot keyboard player, instead, of allowing Carolyn to lead worship, as they wanted a chance, at the Vineyard Music, big leagues, they would deny her care, until it was too late, and she would die. I watched her be offered Martyrdom, by God’s of our Bible’s, and I watched her accept. I then proceeded to watch as they killed her, eventually by leaving her to die, in a hospital, after pulling the plug, for an intestinal blockage, deciding it was best to let her starve to death, as this was better for her health.

I went through what would happen, in the hospital, with God’s of our Bible’s, in visions, and, was assured there was no need, for me to be there, and as her husband had medical authority, even if Carolyn had not accepted martyrdom, I would not have been able to do anything to stop them from starving her to death. In the days prior to this, we spent much time talking on the phone, and being tempted by Joe, and the lesbians who watched her house, to sin, and did not. We, had officially notified another assembly of our engagment, in a gathering, of the assembly, when another woman, whose husband had offerred, the two of us a marriage, not knowing this makes a marriage possible in God’s of our Bible’s eyes, and even in American law, and I agreed we would try to after I met, El Zanza Bar, come together, in that marriage, and I asked Carolyn who had witnessed, if she wanted to do the same, and Carolyn said, yes, of course. So, when she passed with, her husband having offered us, an irrevocable, chance to take each other in marriage, we had an engagement, in God’s of our Bible’s eyes, so; we will have a marriage in heaven.

And, Pamela Sue (whose last name will go unmentioned, since it is still in the name of a second husband, of which beat her mercilessly, for loving her, loving baby):

She is covered in another, entry.

All three, went to their mortal graves, as martyrs for God’s of our Bible’s, and wished to leave a record of what occurred, of which, would clearly indicate, and define, what was evil, and who was evil, in what occurred, in their, demise. All three, spirits, now live inside me. Pamela Sue, came inside, shortly after Carolyn, did, after her first husband, entered to confirm the presence of Christ’s Spirit, the Holy Spirit, and the mind of Christ, and then Carolyn, entered, when her second husband chose to give his eternal, life in order to attempt to keep me, from marrying, another one of my wives. Pamela entered when she was told to come visit, from being with her loving baby, as he was going to be martyred too, as he agreed to be martyred, as Pam did, and they both are now, in God’s of our Bible’s spirit kingdom, the saints, next to saint Peter, in order of humbleness, in their lives on earth. And, Barbara came, a little while ago, when I dug out a menu, I had saved from her hospital stay, to remember, her this holiday season. We, combined spirits, at that time, Carolyn and I did, shortly after, Pam and I did, after El Zanza Bar, gave permission for there to be all wives, of who, wish to marry, myself, Mark Robert Gates.

I now carry these three spirits, and there are others, as promised, a group of burlesque girls, of who wished to marry, and made early dance films, and were promised, a person who would agree to do so, if they asked it, and he did, also, entered. As, when we attempted to talk, as from their spirits, to a mortal human, still in his body, me, and not a spirit only, yet, we were constantly interrupted, so I invited them to enter. Also, since, it had been mentioned Marilyn Monroe, was in the same category, and I had always, said, “I will need visual confirmation, of that, as one cannot trust any spirit, who would claim to be someone, and without a visual of Marilyn, being herself, and her choice to do so, I will be unable to discern her spirit, and unable to decide to do so,” I finally, found, while clicking through channels, on TV, a visual, and have now, Marilyn’s spirit, as well. As, she will be my wife, and all others will too, and Carolyn and her first husband are together, there are no evil spirits, and although, one tried to fool us, as to her intentions, she was kicked out, after failing, our tests, for really desiring a marriage, to myself, Mark Robert Gates, apostle Gideon.

As, mentioned before, even now with the spirits, of three mortally, only, dead women, inside me, of who, will now with El Zanza Bar’s permission, have marriages in heaven, as well, and scars on my thighs, since some men found it necessary to cause harm, rather than suck on my cock, I now still even, find people, trying to speak to me about respect for women, who actually attack all that is holy and divine, in God’s of our Bible’s marriages.

© 2007 Mark Robert Gates, apostle Gideon

Ok, which one’s the proximity fuse?

Can I return this?

In court: “Would you like an attorney, or would you like to have one appointed for you?”

Where does the time go?

Did you find weapons of mass destruction?

Why is gas $3.00 a gallon, and if profits are in the billions at all oil companies, and price fixing is forbidden in America, why are all gas companies charging that price, and no ones competing with a lower price?

Are there any questions?

What is the square root of; anything?

Can I trust you?

If wanting people to throw a gutter ball is your idea of bowling, how many gutter balls, will it take to get Barak Obama elected president?

Are you serious?

Did you report the problem?

© 2007 Mark Robert Gates, apostle Gideon

Below is an actual, category entry heading, listed in Wikipedia under personaility theory:

How the taxonomy is defined

This is an example of what can go wrong, when you let anyone write entries in an Encyclopedia, however, in spite of this, Wikipedia, still has a capability of being changed more quickly than Britannica, when there is error. And, everyone knows Britannica, should stay, off the: topics, of religion, psychology, philosophy, and economics, altogether, and just focus on sciences, and all other verifiable fact, truth and reality, as they cannot print the truth, in those categories, and only manage to print the deceits.

That was in Wikipedia, If, however, it is now, I do not know, someone may have changed the entry.

Bear in mind taxonomy is defined as:

n., pl. -mies.

1. The classification of organisms in an ordered system that indicates natural relationships.

2. The science, laws, or principles of classification; systematics.

3. Division into ordered groups or categories: “Scholars have been laboring to develop a taxonomy of young killers” (Aric Press).

Therefore: taxonomy is only defined in a dictionary.

Now, if, “How the taxonomy is defined,” is not the most moronic statement, made in the pretense of English, one has seen in awhile, then, what is?

If we put to use this word, systematics, given in this definition, and use it, instead, in the entry title given, we then see; how the systematics is defined, instead, and now, know, one can outline a system or its systematic, or a taxonomy, however, no one sane, can ever define one. What we have, is a group of people, whose taxonomy is yet to be classified, systematically destroying all entries under, personality theory, and trait theory, and replacing them, with entries of their own classifications of bunk, instead of, the well defined entries of real personality and trait theory.

The personality trait of: moron?

Finding this kind of thing, is something, of which, is actually sometimes amusing to read in Wikipedia, and when doing research, and one stumbles onto a good laugh like this, one is glad to have had a few moments of serendipitous joy. And, as no college teachers, as yet allow the use of Wikipedia for a bibliography entry, and no one ever reads personaility theory, as it is dry, boring, stuffy and stale, unless, one needs to look it, or something in it, up, as a point of reference, and no one cares if personality theory is correct, in Wikipedia or not, and the amusement of people trying to invent their own, is worth the price of admission. Only, psychology students, actually have to study, personality theory, as it is the only field, in which, such is acceptable, as knowledge, all others, study, occupational behavior, and human resource management, as a course of study. Students of any business college, study occupational behavior, and human resource management, from the angle, of running the show, and students of any field, of which will work for those in business college, study those subjects from the angle of how to work for those who employ them. Causing to be convened, the great American workday, and a most unusual, train wreck.

© 2007, Mark Robert Gates, apostle Gideon

…Of course love entails, benevolence towards the beloved, but it cannot be reduced to mere benevolence. Pure agape by itself becomes a form of benevolent …

I ran across, this, misuse, of insanity, to undo, God’s of our’ Bible’s Word’s, when, checking what a Google, of my blog, would bring up. There, is only one definition of agape, and that is, benevolent love. Agape merely refers to, the love, of which is benevolent, altogether, never, toward another, and the above, is an insane, dead fuck, blaspheming, as love is a feeling, not a thought, directed toward another. Many, cannot find love, because they keep looking for it, in others, and do not feel it, instead. To know the love of another, one must feel love, and give oneself to another, in benevolent love.

There are more words in Greek for love, not just agape, one must use all words to speak of an entire, love of which is felt, in every way altogether. We, do not think love, we feel love. Many walk around, thinking love, toward others without feeling, love, proof of this is in their claim of love for those starving in Africa. We feel love, for, and the love of, those present, we feel compassion for those we hear of starving in Africa, however, if one will not walk outside, one’s studio while raising money to feed the starving in Africa, and lead a homeless man to shelter, food, and clothing, then one, is only feeding oneself, not others. There is of course, agape: benevolent love, also, eros: erotic, sensual, sexual love, philos: familial love felt for members of a family, or group to which one belongs, and thelema: love of which is felt as desiring of another, altogether. If one, in speaking of love, as a verb, with every meaning, all-inclusive, wants others to know what one requires, words: of which; describe, how one is referring to one’s feeling, are necessary, of which will define correctly, the love felt. If one is defining another’s love, one is misspeaking.

Agape Me You!
© 2007 Mark Robert Gates, apostle Gideon

Sung to, Love Me Do,
By, John Lennon

Philo me do.
I do philo; you,
I belong to you,
Pleasure, philo: do;
Whoa, philo too.

Agape do,
One: agape; too,
One: always be true,
Please, my: agape;
Agape be.

Fuse: our body in love,
Fuse our body, you,
Fuse: us in love,
Fuse us in one, you.

Thelema; do,
My: thelema,
Irresistible,
So please; thelema,
My: thelema.

Eros me do.
And, know eros, too.
Marry; me, sweetheart?
So please, eros; do.
Whoa, eros: too.

Fuse: our body in love,
Fuse our body, you,
Fuse: us in love,
Fuse us in one, you.